I just cant get over my cranky-ness. I just spent the weekend alone, bored, going out of my mind. Everything is turning to shit.
Ive stuffed up twice at work the past week - so the boss more than likely hates me now. Aandddd its making me angry at myself. Granted they were only small mistakes, like accidentally sending an extra day on my timesheet.. but he takes things so fucking seriously. My head will now be on the chopping block.
J doesnt have any time for me on the weekend. Im a 'weekday' girlfriend. Im over it.
I pay for everything and get called a tight ass.
I drive him everywhere and he's ungrateful.
Hes getting into more and more debt.
Im turning into the guy in this relationship!! I cannot even remember the last time he took me out and spoiled me.. I mean, im not trying to sound like a selfish bitch, i actually never ever ask anything of him.. But every date we've been on since well before christmas, I have paid for.
He gets paid $800 a week. How is it so hard for him to treat me well?
I am so antsy about money - well its where i want to go in life, I get less than him a week, and so far this year i have brought myself a car and actually have savings in the bank, and still manage to take him out at least twice a week.
This is fucked.
Im so over relationships. I feel as if im becoming selfish, but I seriously do so so much and receive nothing in return.
He even told me not to come to the footy with him on the weekend because i refused to pay for his ticket. Rude, right? He then proceeded to go with a bunch of his mates (who were messaging me asking why i wasnt there, how embarrassing),and managed to get coke and drinks all night.
But I still love him and dont want anyone but him... Just dont know how much longer I can do this.
He thinks that because he tells me he loves me a million times a day, he doesnt actually have to treat me well.
Last night, I was really upset, I basically turned mute and crawled into my own little shell.. I had nothing to say, lack of emotions.. He called me an attention seeker and that I need to get over myself. So i left the room he was in and went to bed so I could feel hollow all alone.
Soon after, he followed up, lay beside me and started touching me inappropriately, even though id told him to get his hands off me. I felt so disrespected.
I left that room too. I just couldnt get far enough away.
Im over it.
I hate being in this mood, I havent felt it in so so long, i feel hollow.. like i dont know what to do, or how to fix any of this..
Uni work is piling up and I have constant exams.
The stress is getting to me.
At least my weight is dropping.
Monday, April 18, 2011
SHITTY MOOD - uber bitch ahead.
Posted by Sarah. at 11:27 AM
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5 comments:
Your relationship doesn't soun vey fair, I know everything doesn't have to be 50/50 but you shouldn't have to pay for everything. You have a valid reason to get upset with him over it.
I hope things turn around for you soon, you deserve to be treated well.
~ H
You absolutely have every right to be upset with the way he is acting. Relationships are give and take, and if your significant other is only taking, then something needs to change.
You can learn to be okay with it, or just learn to live with being totally unhappy (I don't recommend either,) he can change (ideal but difficult) or you can break up.
But something needs to change. You deserve someone who will treat you right.
<3 Jenny
You deserve to be treated much better than that. You should not be giving him his every wish and recieving nothing in return. It's not right. I really think it's time to find someone else, because you deserve so much better.
i used to have that kinda relationship, where i was the only one putting in all the effort and the guy was just a fucking useless retard.
at least weight's dropping. i hope uni is fun x
Harlow is right. And it's not so much money as thoughtfulness, and it doesn't sound like he has either. You'll love someone else more one day. When you get treated better by someone who deserves you.
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